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Guinevere · Last edited by Guinevere on September 09 2008, 11:12 PM; edited 1 time in total

I woke up this morning with some light spotting, which has since stopped, and some painful lower back cramping, which has not stopped. Sad

Since it was a Sunday and I really didn't want to go to the ER, I've decided to wait until tomorrow and call my OB to get seen for an u/s.

Statistically, I know I'm probably overdue for a m/c, since this is my 6th pg, but knowing it may be inevitable isn't making me feel any better. Our whole family was really excited and happy about this baby. Ugh.

If you could spare me some good thoughts, I'd really appreciate it.

I promise to update when I have more news, good or bad.

Kristin

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Charlotte (7), Sophie, (5) 4/20/06 (DS), and Duncan (2)

Jenell Allen · Posted: September 07 2008, 11:00 PM Post subject:

Sending prayers your way.

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Stephanie · Posted: September 07 2008, 11:00 PM Post subject:

oh Kristen, I am saying huge prayers for you right now.....if it makes you feel any better my gf went through this very thing and she is now 32 weeks pg, the doc said it was from being pg so many times (7), I pray that is the case for you. KEep us posted.

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ElijahsMom · Posted: September 07 2008, 11:04 PM Post subject:

Well Hun, if it makes you feel any better, just know that I have been doing this for 12 weeks now. Only I had extreme heavy bleeding all the time. It may be nothing. I hope it is nothing. You have all the prayers from me, I know how it feels. If you need anything, let me know. If this baby is meant to be, it'll be. Just take comfort in knowing that what is supposed to happen, will.

Best of luck.

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jacknbellasmama · Posted: September 07 2008, 11:35 PM Post subject:

Praying over here...

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mom2Anthony&8girls · Posted: September 08 2008, 12:01 AM Post subject:

Kristin,

(((HUGS)))) I am praying for you and your baby.

I had bleeding with my last two pregnancies. The 8th pregnancy was for no apparent reason, my 9th and last was due to a uterine tear from having a very tired uterus. Bed rest for a few weeks till no tear could be seen, even after that I was still considered high risk the rest of my pregnancy, but very much watched during l&d. All was well, Rachel came 4 weeks early, pink, healthy and screaming.

I am praying that it's just a fluke thing that will go away. Pleae keep us posted.

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CAmommy2KJ · Posted: September 08 2008, 8:36 AM Post subject:

I'm sorry Kristin, I'll be praying!

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blessed with Esther · Posted: September 08 2008, 8:53 AM Post subject:

Praying

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vonda · Posted: September 08 2008, 10:35 AM Post subject:

Well I've had both, bleeding due to miscarriage and bleeding for no apparent reason, ending in a healthy baby, so I guess it's all up to God on this one. Will be praying.

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ChoseSophie · Posted: September 08 2008, 10:52 AM Post subject: Spotting and cramping...

Kristin, I'm praying for you. ---Jen

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jooniper · Posted: September 08 2008, 12:35 PM Post subject:

joining in on the prayers, Kristin.

Let us know...

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jrahn · Posted: September 08 2008, 1:22 PM Post subject:

Many prayers

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Josiesmom · Posted: September 08 2008, 1:27 PM Post subject:

Many prayers. Hope to hear a good news update soon.

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kris10z · Posted: September 08 2008, 4:17 PM Post subject:

Prayers for you!!!

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shea01 · Posted: September 08 2008, 5:40 PM Post subject:

I'm so sorry. I will be praying for you.

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JenBrock'sMom · Posted: September 08 2008, 5:54 PM Post subject:

Sending positive thoughts your way.

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af_wife2005 · Posted: September 08 2008, 5:55 PM Post subject:

Many Prayers to you all

Angelbaby · Posted: September 08 2008, 6:31 PM Post subject:

Sending lots of prayers

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Tigger · Posted: September 09 2008, 6:48 AM Post subject:

Praying all is ok.

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Guinevere · Posted: September 09 2008, 11:10 PM Post subject:

Hey there, everyone,

Sorry it took me so long to update; it's been a long past couple of days, full of waiting in limbo and uncertainty.

DH went with me today to the u/s. We saw very little. There was a small, empty gestational sac and nothing more. No baby without a hb, which was honestly the image I was most dreading. Nothing baby-like at all, in fact. Just a sad little empty black spot where the baby should have been.

I'm actually doing better than I had thought I would be. I'm obviously sad, as is DH, but knowing that nothing really developed even from the very beginning feels different to me somehow than the loss of the physical baby that I expected. Instead it feels more like the loss of a sweet and beautiful dream, the dream of our next baby. And we fully intend to try for that dream again. Of course, it's also possible I'm totally in denial -- only time will tell, I suppose.

In a very odd sort of way I was relieved that the u/s didn't show a hb. B/c if it had, while I still had all this pain and worry and stress, then I would have been deeply confused and would have felt that my instincts were totally wrong. And my instincts are what saved Sophie's life -- the last time I had this exact same feeling of dread, it was when she had stopped moving one morning in utero and I was trying to decide whether or not to call and go in to be monitored; she ended up being born via emergency c/s an hour later, barely alive. *shudder* So anyway, I now put a lot more stock into my instincts. Finding out that I had imagined/misinterpreted the dread I felt would have made me lose a lot of confidence in my ability to read my body. Does that make any sense?

We told the kids this afternoon, assuring them that there was nothing I or they or anyone could have done, that this is just something that happens sometimes, and that we were disappointed, but that we would try again to add a new baby to our family.

So, that leaves the actual m/c. My cramping, which had gotten very bad indeed, has all but stopped. And I haven't had a spot of blood since the original brief spotting on Sunday. My body seems bound and determined to stay pg, even when there's no pg! I still feel totally pg, too. Ugh.

So I've requested a D&C and will find out tomorrow when it will be scheduled. If I m/c on my own before then, that would be fine, but I'm not confident it's happening anytime soon. I'm supposed to be 9 wks. along tomorrow and clearly my body has been carrying on without a baby for a very long time already, with no real clue. Now that I know, for the sake of my mental health, I need to end this as soon as I can.

I can't thank you enough for all the support you have shown me on this thread; it really meant a lot to me.

Kristin

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Charlotte (7), Sophie, (5) 4/20/06 (DS), and Duncan (2)

vonda · Posted: September 10 2008, 6:42 AM Post subject:

Awww I'm crying for you, that is very sad, but like you said, sometimes things just happen. If I hadn't had my miscarriage I wouldn't have Noah or Halle, and that's even sadder!!! Take care. I'm sure you'll be announcing a new baby on the way soon!!!

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ChoseSophie

Oh Kristin. I am so sorry. You have shown such strength and I understand the need to believe in your instincts. Please let me know if there is anything I can do. My thoughts are and have been with you.
---Jen

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For this child we prayed "And the child grew and became strong; [she] was filled with wisdom, and the grace of God was upon [her]." Luke 2:40

jooniper · Posted: September 10 2008, 7:58 AM Post subject:

I'm sorry, Krsitin.

Continued prayers.

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Googsmom · Posted: September 10 2008, 10:41 AM Post subject:

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

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jkjmom · Posted: September 10 2008, 8:53 PM Post subject:

you and your baby are in my prayers

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My girl Sam · Posted: September 10 2008, 9:26 PM Post subject:

I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you guys.

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shea01 · Posted: September 10 2008, 9:44 PM Post subject:

This is so sad. I hope that someday I will be rejoicing with you on your next pregnancy. I'll be praying for you.

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LinMac · Posted: September 11 2008, 4:30 PM Post subject:

I'm sorry for you loss. I too had a missed miscarriage discovered in week 11. Baby had died in week 8.
I know how you are feeling. Love and hugs to you at this sad time.
Take care of yourself my friend.

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Gabrielsmom · Posted: September 19 2008, 3:31 PM Post subject:

so sorry for your loss Sad

Sending you lots of hugs ((((((()))))))))

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